Dear Marlen,
You are really kicking my butt. I think this whole process is hard, but I know it will be good for me. I guess the reason why I find it so difficult, is because I have never spent this much time on a paper. I was never given so much freedom. And although it hurts my brain sometimes, I know its all for a good reason-so thank you.
I definitely feel like, already, that my academic and creative skills are improving. This research paper is really making me think hard, which is something IUP doesnt really require (so far). But I feel like this is a stepping stone, to harder classes, and better working skills. I love how we can connect to our passions. I think that in itself is a road to a successful paper. Marlen, you are so intelligent! You’re truly an inspiration.
Due to financial issues, I had to get a real job this semester. I didnt want to, but now im working at dominos. Last week I worked 38 hours, this week 30. I feel like someone is de-threading me, piece by piece. Ive definatley felt apathetic, lazy, worn out latley but also have cried myself to sleep because of exhaustion and stress. I havent had time to work on this as much as Ive wanted to. I know there are no excuses, but I thought I could handle this and I cant. Im going to ask to work like 2 days only. I need to focus on school, and definatley this paper. So I wanted to say Im sorry, im not putting my best work forward, but hopefully when I have more time for me, I WILL do better.
